qurratul'aini

looking back..;)

2011-02-20T00:34:00.000-08:00

looking back..searching for the 'old you' was the best thing i had done ever..to remind ur self of anything u hold dear to heart since then..review back all the suffering, joy and sacrifice back there..

once in a while, I would love to read back all my post in this blog..as my own diary of life..looking what's important to me..my hopes..my dreams ;)esp when u're lost..;)

for me to keep my journey on the right track..so that i won't forget who am i inside..
sometimes we walk too fast in life and forgot what's our aim in life..
what is the reason of living? what is your correct way of life?

sometimes we forgot the basic need in ur life when u're too busy with the 'worldly things'..
o Allah, how i'm ashamed of my life of not managing my time well but i know i have my priority clear...i'm glad that Allah still give me chance to prove it..o Allah, it is still a long way to go.. please give me strength and iman to pass it all with flying colours.. make this 'hijrah' for me to start fresh and become better in every aspect of my life in my search for mardhatillah..ameen

pray to Him..

2011-02-16T08:59:00.000-08:00

haven't write in this blog for a very long time..well, i'm not good in writing..it's my husband actually who encouraged me on writing..;)
being a wife, mother of two and preggy 11weeks, humble worker, servant of Allah..can it be my reason for being busy? well, that's what I presumed most people would think..;)which have been my very reason..still;)
thanks Allah for giving me good family to rely on..love companion who always remind me of being better and improved..my hubby:)

my next chapter of life: which I called study life..
it was not easy to decide on this part of my life..need a lot to give in..to sacrifice.. to build my dream..
I have a childhood dream of becoming a professor..still remember it..as young as 4 years old..i want to prove it..
I need to improve for my pride..satisfaction and yearning to study again..become better in my life and be knowledgeable..and being acknowledged for my career..
I need to improve my financial status..become better for my growing family..
I need to prove to other that i can achieve my dream..
I want to be a dependent mother for the comfort of my child..for my child to live better..
If you want to be dai'e, be knowledgeable is important..for you to spread truth and da'wah better..and improve my society..
I want to be better academically and being near to Allah with those whose my heart setled down for mardhatillah..
and I choose IIUM coz it was the place which have trained me to better in da'wah, usrah and helping those in need..i really miss it..my work, my carrer, my family most of time tied my arm and legs from involving in those area eventhough my heart moaning inside..i have lost touch of everything which my hearts yearn most..people keeps on giving u tazkirah..ilm'..usrah..philosophy of Islam which I long to hear..;)

with usrah..ukhuwah..strong believers around me..i hope i could improve myself, my thinking, my way of life.. to train my little khalifahs..
o Allah bless me..bless all of them show us the way for your love only..fimardhatillah..
u just need to pray to him...please o Allah, guide us along the way..;)alhamdulillah..

girl before flower

2010-10-18T08:52:00.000-07:00

be sincere...

2010-10-18T04:08:00.000-07:00

SINCERITY
-Anonymous

Learn to call on Allah,
In the dark,
While Riding on a bus,
Or sitting in a park

Learn to do it when,
Alone in a room,
Or staying up late,
Staring at the moon
And if someone boasts about,
What he did for Allah,
And asks you to tell him,
What you did for Allah
Just Say, "Why should I tell you"
If I did it for Allah?"

be thankful, ummu wafi

2010-10-18T04:07:00.000-07:00

BE THANKFUL
====================

Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire,
If you did, what would there be to look forward to?

Be thankful when you don't know something
For it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times.
During those times you grow.

Be thankful for your limitations
Because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for each new challenge
Because it will build your strength and character.

Be thankful for your mistakes
They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you're tired and weary
Because it means you've made a difference.

It is easy to be thankful for the good things.
A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also
thankful for the setbacks.

GRATITUDE can turn a negative into a positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles and they
can become your blessings.

NEVER TOO BUSY !!!!

2010-10-18T04:00:00.000-07:00

I'M TOO BUSY

Everyday as i wake up at dawn
My mind start working the moment i yawn
There were many things to do, o dear!
That's why i hastily did my Subuh prayer
I didn't have the time to sit longer to
praise the Lord
To me rushing out after prayer is nothing odd...

Since school, i had been busy every minute
Completing my tutorials and handing it in
My ECAs took up most of my time always
No time did i have to Allah to pray
Too many things to do and zikir is rare
For Allah, I really had no time to spare..

When i grew up and started my career
Working all day to secure my future
When I reached home, I prefered to have fun
I chatted on the phone but i didn't read the Quran
I spent too much time surfing the Internet
Sad to say, my faith was falling flat...

The only time i have left is weekends
During which i prefer window shopping with friends
I couldn't spare time to go to the mosque
I'm too busy, that's the BIG EXCUSE...

I did my five prayers but did so quickly
After prayer, I didn't sit longer to reflect quietly
I didn't have time to help the needy ones
I was loaded with work as my precious time runs

No time at all to visit a sick Muslim friend
To orphans and elderly, I hardly lent a hand
I'm too busy to do community service
When there were gatherings, I helped the least

My life was already full of stress
So i didn't counsel a Muslim in distress
I didn't spend much time with my family
B'coz i thought, doing so is a waste of time...

No time to share with non-Muslim about Islam
Even though I know, inviting causes no harm
No time to do Sunnah prayers at all
All these contribute to my imaan's fall..

I'm busy here and busy there
I've no time at all, that's all i care
I went for religious lessons, just once in awhile
Coz i'm too busy making a pile...

I worked all day and i slept all night
Too tired for Tahajjud and it seemed not right
To me, earning a living was already tough
so i only did basic deeds but that's not enough..

No time at all, to admire God's creation
No time to praise All_h and seek His Compassion
Although I know how short is my life
For Islam, I really didn't strive..

Finally the day comes, when the Lord calls for me
And I stood before Him with my Life's History

I feel so guilty b'coz i should have prayed more
Isn't that what a Muslim lives for?
To thank Allah and do more good deeds
And the Quran is for us all to read..

Now at Judgement Day, I'm starting to fret
I've wasted my life but it's too late to regret
My entry to Paradise depend on my good behaviour
But i've not done enough nor did proper prayer

My "good deed book" is given from my right
An angel opened my "book" and read out my plight.
Then the angel chided me....

"O You Muslim servant, you are the one,
Who is given enough time, yet not much is done
Do you know that your faith is loose?
saying "no time" is only an excuse.
Your "good deed book" should be filled up more
with all the good work you stood up for..

Hence, I only recorded those little good deeds
As I say this, I know your eyes will mist..
I was about to write some more, you see
But i did not have, THE TIME to list".......

THE END..

FAITH

2010-10-18T03:57:00.000-07:00

FAITH

A Muslim Woman

She conceals her beauty
Obstructs the radiance from seeping through
Cloaks her seductivity
Refuses to submit to the wordly desires
Preserves her atractiveness and charm
Protects the diamond within
She is left savorless
Banal
Insipid
Vapid
Yet she remains veiled.

She is ridicled by prejudice
Mocked by displayed beauty
Taunted by the devil.
It shatters her patience
Lowers her self esteem
But only for a split of a second.
She remains veiled.

Its strange
Incomprehensible
Yet marvelous
It's faith.

I ASK FOR STRENGTH...

2010-10-18T03:55:00.000-07:00

I asked for Strength.........
And God gave me Difficulties to make me strong.
I asked for Wisdom.........
And God gave me Problems to solve.
I asked for Prosperity.........
And God gave me Brain and Brawn to work.
I asked for Courage.........
And God gave me Danger to overcome.
I asked for Love.........
And God gave me Troubled people to help.
I asked for Favours.........
And God gave me Opportunities.

I received nothing I wanted
I received everything I needed
My Prayer has been answered

Inspiring story 2

2010-09-18T05:40:00.000-07:00

Dear Fathimah, more importantly is your husband's contentment, for he will not pray for you if he is not pleased. Know the fact that husband's contentment is Allah's, and husbands rage is also Allah's.

Dear Fathimah, if a woman is pregnant, angels will istighfar (ask forgiveness) for the unborn, Allah will note down a thousand of goodness, and erase a thousand of mistakes. When she suffers during labor, Allah S.W.T notes down rewards of those who fight in Allah's way (jihad). When she gives birth, her sins will be erased as clean as the day she was born. Should she die during labor, she will be cleaned of her sins, and her grave will be a garden of the gardens of Eden, and Allah S.W.T will bestow upon her rewards of a thousand hajj pilgrimages and a thousand of Umrah's, and the a thousand angels will ask for forgiveness for her (istighfar) every single day until the end of time. Any woman who duly serves her husband faithfully and unconditionally, Allah will forgive all her sins, put green dresses and reward a thousand rewards for every strand of hair in her body, and Allah will bestow upon her rewards of one thousand hajj pilgrimages and a thousand of Umrah's.

Dear Fathimah, any woman who smiles for her husband, Allah S.W.T will look upon her with blessings. Dear Fathimah, any woman who provides comfort, or beautify the house, the angels will shout, "Continue your kindness, and Allah forgives some of your previous sins, and some of your future sins."

Dear Fathimah, any woman who grooms her husband, trimming his hair, moustache and beard, and clipping his fingernails, Allah will allow her to drink from the rivers of heaven. Allah S.W.T will also relieve her dying (sakratul maut), and make her grave as garden from the gardens of Eden, save her from fiery hell, and save her from the Shirat bridge (crossing the hell).

Jika Isteri Menangis dihadapanmu...

2010-08-27T14:44:00.000-07:00

Jika isteri menangis dihadapanmu…..
by Norlia Ismail on Thursday, July 22, 2010 at 11:04am

Jika isteri menangis dihadapanmu….
“hargai lah ia sblm terlewat…”
Jika seorang isteri menangis dihadapanmu,
itu bererti dia tidak dapat menahannya lagi…
Jika kau memegang tangannya saat dia menangis, dia akan tinggal bersamamu sepanjang hidupmu..
Jika kau membiarkannya pergi, dia tidak akan kembali menjadi dirinya yang dulu, selamanya!
Seorang isteri tidak akan menangis dengan mudah, kacuali didepan orang yang sangat dia sayangi, dia akan menjadi lemah!

Seorang isteri tidak akan menangis dengan mudah, hanya jika dia sangat menyayangimu.
Dia akan menurunkan rasa EGOnya.
Wahai suami2, jika seorang istri pernah menangis karenamu, tolong pegang tangannya dengan penuh pengertian.
Kerana dia adalah orang yang akan tetap bersamamu sepanjang hidupmu disaat kau terpuruk terlalu dalam …
Wahai suami2, jika seorang isteri menangis keranamu, tolong jangan menyia-nyiakannya. Mungkin, kerana keputusanmu, kau merosakkan kehidupannya.
Saat dia menangis didepanmu, saat dia menangis keranamu. Lihatlah jauh kedalam matanya. Dapatkah kau lihat dan kau rasakan SAKIT yang dirasakannya keranamu ?
Apakah keistimewaan perempuan ini ? ”
Dibalik KELEMBUTANYA dia memiliki kekuatan yang begitu dahsyat..
TUTUR katanya merupakan KEBENARAN..
SENYUMAN’nya adalah SEMANGAT bagi orang yang dicintainya. .
PELUKAN & CIUMAN’nya bisa memberi KEHANGATAN bagi anak2nya..
Dia TERSENYUM bila melihat temannya tertawa..
Dia TERHARU Dia MENANGIS bila melihat KESENGSARAAN pd org2 yg dikasihinya. ..
Dia mampu TERSENYUM dibalik KESEDIHAN’nya. .
Dia sangat GEMBIRA melihat KELAHIRAN..
Dia begitu sedih melihat KEMATIAN..
TITISAN air matanya bisa membawa PERDAMAIAN.
Tapi dia sering dilupakan oleh SUAMI krn 1 hal…
Bahawa “Betapa BERHARGAnya dia”…
Sebarkan ini ke SELURUH ISTERI2 yg soleha dan SUAMI2 yang kamu kenal agar mereka tidak lupa bahwa ISTERI mrk begitu berHARGA… Dan sangat berHARGA.

Hold My Hand Lyrics

2010-08-25T13:03:00.000-07:00

Hold My Hand Lyrics

By: Maher Zain
I hear the flower’s kinda crying loud
The breeze’s sound in sad
Oh no
Tell me when did we become,
So cold and empty inside
Lost a way long time ago
Did we really turn out blind
We don’t see that we keep hurting each other no
All we do is just fight

Now we share the same bright sun,
The same round moon
Why don’t we share the same love
Tell me why not
Life is shorter than most have thought

Hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what we have left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let’s pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you

Children seem like they’ve lost their smile
On the new blooded playgrounds
Oh no
How could we ignore , heartbreaking crying sounds
And we’re still going on
Like nobody really cares
And we just stopped feeling all the pain because
Like it’s a daily basic affair

Now we share the same bright sun,
The same round moon
Why don’t we share the same love
Tell me why not
Life is shorter than most have thought

Hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what we have left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let’s pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you

No matter how far I might be
I’m always gonne be your neighbor
There’s only one small planet where to be
So I’m always gonna be your neighbor
We cannot hide, we can’t deny
That we’re always gonna be neighbors
You’re neighbor, my neighbor
We’re neighbors

So hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what have left behind

So hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what have left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let’s pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you

Artist: Maher Zain
Album: Thank You Allah
Lyrics: Bilal Hajji
Melody: Maher Zain
Arrangement: Maher Zain
Copyright: Awakening Records 200

Insha Allah Lyrics

2010-08-25T12:59:00.000-07:00

Insha Allah Lyrics

By: Maher Zain

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That your so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can’t see which way to go
Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Everytime you commit one more mistake
You feel you can’t repent
And that its way too late
Your’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Turn to Allah
He’s never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
OOO Ya Allah
Guide my steps don’t let me go astray
You’re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way x2
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah we’ll find the way
Video & Lyrics Information

Artist: Maher Zain
Album: Thank You Allah
Lyrics: Maher Zain & Bara Kherigi
Melody: Maher Zain
Arrangement: Maher Zain & Hamza Namira
Copyright: Awakening Records 2009

For the Rest of My Life Lyrics

2010-08-25T12:57:00.000-07:00

For the Rest of My Life Lyrics

By: Maher Zain

I praise Allah for sending me you my love
You found me home and sail with me
And I`m here with you
Now let me let you know
You`ve opened my heart
I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along
OOOOO
And theres a couple words I want to say

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart
I feel so blessed when I think of you
And I ask Allah to bless all we do
You`re my wife and my friend and my strength
And I pray we`re together eternally
Now I find myself so strong
Everything changed when you came along
OOOO
And theres a couple word I want to say

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart now that you`re here
Infront of me I strongly feel love
And I have no doubt
And I`m singing loud that I`ll love you eternally

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you.loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart

Artist: Maher Zain
Album: Thank You Allah
Copyright: Awakening Records 2009

Maher Zain

2010-08-25T12:25:00.000-07:00

For the rest of my life is the best song ever..especially truely dedicated to my husband. Insha Allah, Open your eyes and The Chosen One was also among the best.It knock ur heart and soul. Said straight to face: Do u have it? Did u know?Can u feel? Have u done it? O ya Allah, please guide me the way to improved myself in my housekeeping care, in my profession, in my life. My children are growing..they like to play..they like to eat..they like grooming..hihi my self satisfaction in my profession s also growing..need to improve..need to upgrade. have my choices but still lost.
O Allah, I don't know which is best for me? please show me ur way..I'm surrounded by darkness. My hopes are falling apart as I'm still lost.
When u have experience in your field you feel longing to pursue study in that field..but it would jeopardize my family, my husband..what is my aim? where am I going? My priority is my family but I would miss my oppurtunity...O Allah, please strengthen my heart..my choice.
May Allah give me the strength to be a superwomen for my family..to cater all their need. Be a better person for my family, community, profession and ummah as whole. Bless me ya Allah..bless my family

Conflict of interest..

2009-12-11T05:49:00.000-08:00

my family n my field of interest..
work vs study vs family
to pursue in my career or not?
Am I in the right track?
Oo..please ya Allah, please show me n guide me through this..
Oo..Allah, totally I'm lost in my self...
how am I to cope better?
how am I to run everything under my responsibilities?
can I?

cheese cake..kak chik

2009-12-11T03:54:00.000-08:00

dapat buat cheese cake ngan kak chik aritu..;)
Bahan2:
biskut marie (1/3 of 1 packet) or biskut oreo without the cream
sedikit marjerin/butter
250g of cream cheese
500g of philadelphia cheese
3 eggs
1 cups of sugar

Method:
1. pecah2kan biskut marie pakai lesung batu katsatu bekas.
2. panaskan marjerin/butter atas api then bubuh atas biskut..tempek2 kat base of loyang..bagi rata..loyang ni dalam 18-20cm
3. then, masuk dlam peti ais..bagi sejuk.
4. putar gula campur philadelphia cheese selama 15 minit..sampai gelembung n gebu..jgn berhenti.
5. then, masuk cream cheese...putar lagi...
6. then masuk telur satu persatu..putar lagi
7. sementara tu, preheat oven 15o degree..
8. pour atas base tadi..
9. then, bakar 1 jam sampai kekuningan.. boleh celup ngan lidi..tapi jgn bukak selalu oven..lebih kurang 45minit, check..
10. InsyaAllah, bole cuba lagi..

our life

2009-09-28T17:22:00.000-07:00

Dear love,
There are a lot of uncertainty in life, where our hopes lie best..and I pray everyday for Allah to give me us the best..
Sometimes, in life we would encounter other people with different opinion, different way of life or rather different priority in life..sometimes we crushed in others feelings..or sometimes we might hate each other for that too..as for those that we love, they crushed our heart even more.. but running away from ur own feeling was not a good solution..it's hard to forgive and forget..but please try..;)
Allah made us so different so that we can learn from each other..not to hate each other. Because nobody is perfect..You are not perfect, neither do I.but, we are trying to be our best.. we are trying to make our world a better place to be.. Jack do a lot of talk but no action done.. We always talk about what is good and what is bad.. but when thing stress out, our ego was so tall just to admit that we did wrong too..
Yes, they wronged you..Yes, they don't trust you..Yes, they were prejudiced about you..Face it..and try to prove that they were in wrong..prove that you can be trusted. For you ARE..and most of all, I TRUST YOU..

Kek Chocolate resepi Mak Temah

2009-09-23T14:50:00.000-07:00

Bahan2:
1. 1cawan koko
2. setengah cawan gula
3. satu cawan air
(masak bawah api yg kecil sampai tak berketul2)
4. 250g tepung naik sendiri atau tepung gandum campur 11/3 sudu teh soda bikarbonat (diayak)
5. 5 biji telur
6. 360g marjerin

Cara2 membuatnya:
1. masak koko
2. Putar marjerin + telur dalam mesin pemutar
3. Bila dah sebati, masuk telur satu persatu, gaul sampai sebati (nanti dia jadi gebu)
4. lepas tu, masukkan koko dan tepung secara berselang-seli
5. basuh loyang, keringkan then letak marjerin pastu tabur tepung..
6. masukkan adunan dalam loyang
7. preheat oven..bakar dlm suhu 175 selama 45 minit..
8. Pastu, boleh letak topping dia..(mak letak coklat buku yg dihiris, koko, milo n susu pekat manis then cairkan, bila dah sejuk letak atas kek)
Bukannya apa, kek chocolate Mak Temah memang sedap..bila kitaorg balik raya dtg rumah dia..memang nak rasa kek dia..hehe..;)

Hari Raya Pertama..

2009-09-23T14:38:00.000-07:00

Seronoknyer tahun ni dpt beraya di Perak..lebih tepat lagi, Kg Tualang Sekah, Kampar..hehe..sbb selalu tak ingat nama kampung abg..semua ada kecuali Kak Chik jer..seronok betul wafi..
Tahun ni, instead of ketupat, ummi belajar buat lemang ;)seronok tu sebab buat kerja gotong-royong, sambil bual2..kenal hati budi masing2..
Walaupun, ummi tak berapa kenal sedara abg, tapi ummi belajar memahami salasilah keluarga abg yg ramai..
Yang paling seronok dpt buat kek chocolate respi Mak Temah (betul ke nama gelaran dia?) hehe.. buat ngan mak the day nak balik Muar..;) byk lagi yg nak dipelajari nih..

Seronoknyer jadi ummi ;)

2009-08-29T17:29:00.000-07:00

Seronoknyer bila wafi dah boleh sebut ummi n abi..
Seronoknyer bila dapat mandikan wafi..
Seronoknyer bila wafi minta pujuk kalo merajuk..
Seronoknyer bila wafi minta peluk bila nak tido..
Seronoknyer bila wafi makan ummi suap..
Seronoknyer bila wafi teman ummi masak..
(",)
Seronoknyer nanti bila wafi dah pandai cakap..

Sabar je la bila wafi babab ummi..
Sabar jer la ila wafi tarik rambut ummi..
Sabar jer la bila wafi tak nak makan..
Sabar jer la bila wafi makan kecah2..
Sabar jer la bila wafi babab adik..
Sabar jer la bila wafi demam..
Sabar jer la bila wafi kena bisul..
Sabar jer la bila wafi kena buli..
sabar jer la bila wafi sepah2kan umah..
sabar jer la bila wafi nak main air kat bilik mandi..
Sabar jer la bila wafi muntah dalam kereta..

Seronoknyer jadi ummi.. Alhamdulillah, thanks Allah..

My breastfeeding journey 2nd edition..

2009-08-25T10:32:00.000-07:00

Wow, it's great.. Alhamdulillah, trying to make breastmilk stock for my working time..I'm using Medela Freestyle and I love it so much.. I hope can maintain breastfeeding my baby as long as I can..Initially I only got 1 oz then slowly 2 oz and currently 3 oz..oh, I love it. It doesn't hurt at all..
May Allah give me the strength to be in this line of ibadah as long as possible..
For those out there..who is still trying to find their own breastpump.. medela is the best..;)

those in life that i missed

2009-08-13T06:44:00.000-07:00

taking breastfeeding leave makes me realize that there were a lots of things in life that i lagged behind..sometimes it makes me want to work, where i can be my best..

first, wafi..before this, wafi n ummi was quite a distance..if he cried, he would rather hugged my hubby than me..he would hear to him, kiss him but not me ..
but now, taking care of him fulltime, nursed him, bath him, feed him makes Wafi loves me more...and i feel glad about it..that's the price that i have to pay for working..those were the things that i miss in life..seeing him grow up.
I missed breastfeeding him.. only upto 6 months.. please Allah, make things easier for me with Wadi..

second, my house..being at work most of the time, made me so tired when back home..i was so tired to frequently clean, tidy my home..glad i have washing machine to do my laundry..

third, cooking..i love cooking very much but not be able to cook most of the time made my few skill lost and many dishes i still cannot make it right..sometimes it look so simple but when you come to it, you did not get the same end result..

fourth, my family..i love my family..

fifth, my neighbourhood..i only talk to 2 houses in my neighbourhood..i don't know others

sixth..ABIM..i cannot contribute more than I can.. but I still miss the support and tazkirah. and what matter most was my friends..same fikrah, so we understand each other.

seventh, my friends..I don't have time for them..as I struggle in my life..managing my house, my kids..I really miss them..wish they would forgive me..

there were so many things..is it worth it?but I also loves my work..I hope when I helped people, Allah will help my family, my hubby, my kids n also my friend in life..making their life more easier.
InsyaAllah..

My breastfeeding journey..

2009-08-13T06:15:00.000-07:00

it's so tough to maintain.. Oh..please God, help me..and my survey was so amazing..sometimes you never know what you'll found..I also found a very strong support group. that is what i really love about it. www.susuibu.com, www.mumlittleone.com every fact n detail about breastfeeding...thanks Karyatee.. for introducing this to me...please ya Allah, I want to make this experience as reality and feel proud about it so i can promote to others..amal ma'ruf nahi mungkar.

Be a superwomen..

2009-08-05T05:25:00.000-07:00

This part of my life was tough. I love my children..just need to customize with my own rythm and adjust with my life. I admit that it was quite difficult. At one time both Wadi n wafi cried while i was in the middle of cooking food at the kitchen..how am i to respond? Oh..ya Allah please help me..Both need my attention. So sometimes, I would take the whole morning just to cook lunch or the whole evening, just to prepare for dinner...:) Well, we just have to deal with it..

Now, I know how my mother were..in those time..taking care of us (her 8 children)..got to be 'superwomen'. How I wish I could be one.. Just need some more time. Kak Hasni would be one good example..:)
Gambatene..

Dugaanku...'buat mak..'

2009-08-01T23:14:00.000-07:00

My Worry

I lay at night wondering what you’re going through,

I cannot close my eyes without thinking of you,

With every tear I pray for you,

I wish I could be there,

To hold your hands and comfort you.

When I wake up I lift my hands up high,

And ask Allah to put ease in your life,

Bring joy and happiness,

To have your loved ones by your side,

For it is the least you deserve.

Be strong and have faith,

For Allah is always there,

He listens and answers,

So ask away.

I wish life was easier and simple,

With love and peace,

But Allah is All Wise,

For if it was,

We would never achieve our goal.

It is these little things that make us stronger,

Appreciate what we have,

So when you face a trial,

And you think you’ll break,

Remember it is because He loves you and believes in you.

I cannot imagine in a million years what you are going through,

But it is through your absence I feel your pain.

I pray for things to be the way they were,

But this is my test and yours too,

Just bear in mind, I’ll always be there waiting for you.

By Shumina Uddin

Let Me... my luv

2009-08-01T22:51:00.000-07:00

Let me be your blanket when you are feeling cold,
Let me be your memories, for when we both grow old.
Let me be your voice for when you're shy to speak.
Let me be your smiles when it's comfort that you seek.

Let me hold your hand, and guide you down life's road.
Let me hold your troubles and this worlds nasty load.
Let me hold your face, to tell you that I care.
Let me hold your heart, to let you know I'm there.

Let me be the cloth that wipes away your tears.
Let me be the advise that whispers in those ears.
Let me be the remedy for every ache and pain.
Let me be the one, to polish every lesson's stain.

Let me in, when you are scared and when you're feeling small.
Let me in, so that I may make you, once again feel tall.
Let me in, so I can see how beautiful God has made you.
Let me in, so that I can help with every lesson that He gave you.

Let me see your shining eyes, and let me see your grace.
Let me see the lines of aging decorate your glowing face.
Let me see the little boy that grew in every possible good way.
Let me see my blessings, my sweet darling, each and every day!.

tanggal 18hb Jun 2009

2009-08-01T01:09:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah...Muhammad Sahrol Wadi selamat lahir ke dunia..For the past 1 week, memang tak larat nak pegi keja. Abg pun dah risau.. standby jer..time tulah nak bermanja. balik keja terus tidur.. abg memang heaven. Tlg kemas umah, settlekan kain baju, jaga wafi..Thanks abg. Luv u..

Ari tu hari rabu.. ada cme petang tu..tajuk yg tah ape2..how to make a good case summary..hehe ;)
sakit lebih sikit dari biasa.. dalam kul 11 pagi perasan ada show. takut.. terus tepon abg..went to labor room straight to be check..glad abg dah sedia dgn beg emergency dlm kereta. malu betul..kena check dgn Syamilah.. MO lain kat klinik. 3cm actually but the labour pain still not consistent. contraction 2in 10. Either want to wait or get admitted.. to be safe, abg say say better get admitted. wafi will stay at mak sham's house that night.. kesian wafi.. tak pernah tido ngan Mak Sham sblm ni..

ptg tu, sakit makin kurang. contraction 1 in 10. malam tu rasa mcm bole balik umah. tunggu esok..dlm kul 12 malam, pakai enema satu then BO. rasa lega sikit then tido. dalam kul 2 pg, contraction makin kuat n regular. kul 3.30 pg rasa mcm nk kuar sgt2. kejut abg terus check VE. 5cm effaced. HO oncall masa tu Lim. suruh dia dokumen jer finding then tolak ke LR. Jumpa kwn lagi kat LR. Dia buat VE dah 8cm. buat AROM. moderate liquor. rasa nak teran sgt dah masa tue. Then Maliza dtg suruh mengiring sebab CTG x cantik masa tu. still meneran gak dlm mengiring tue. tak fikir apa cuma nak teran keluar jer masa tue. ramai bg support. bila dah keluar kepala baby rasa lega sikit.. pastu baru push abis. baby nangis sekejap jer. Ada Paeds standby. Mlm tu, Evelyn oncall. She said, "You have a very healthy baby, ezmas. So, do not worry."nasib baik takde ape2. Masa tu abg cium kat dahi.. rasa relieved sgt.

First time tgk wadi..rasa bersyukur sgt..meleleh air mata. Alhamdulillah.. tembam, ada lesung pipit dua belah..Mcmana agaknya Wafi tgk adiknye nanti..:) Thank you Allah.. Bless my family.

To be or not to be..

2008-05-27T02:25:00.000-07:00

Last weekend, we went to Gunung Ledang Resort..well, it was not purely vacation. At least we do have some piece of mind. Actually, it was an ISO course for Pejabat Kesihatan Daerah Muar.

Abg tak hadiri fully that course because on saturday, he need to attend kursus umrah in Bangi together with his sisters. We stayed a night at my mother-in-law in Nilai.

Wafi and I stayed in our room when abg goes on his ISO session. Something strike my mind during our stay there. I don't know. Maybe after we met Ezad's wife and their kids. I forgot her name. She was older than me. Born on 1979. They have been married since 5 years ago. She was so tough..I really admire her. She can brought her kids all by herself all the way from Melaka. Her youngest one name ifa, 1 year plus and the eldest, hanif 3 years plus.. they were so playful..

I realized that if we want something, surely we can get it. It is all in the mind. You can do it if you can.. It is all depends on you..I want to manage my life. I want to manage my home. I want to go further in my working life and contribute some benefit for my community and my family. I want to control my life and be the best that I can do.. But surely I really need the love n support from my loved ones.. Luv u ;)

Batik cake

2008-05-19T20:16:00.000-07:00

It's simple, really.. (taught by my dear, Hasanah)

Ingredients:

1 packets of marie biscuits (break it into pieces)
1 cup of coco
1 cup of Milo
an egg (stir it properly)
1 small tin of sweetened creamer
butter (small pack)

How to make batik cake?

Firstly, heat the butter under small fire
Pour out the milk, egg and Milo
Stir it properly until you can feel no more grumble within
Pour out the coco
Stir it again until you can see bubbles come out from within
Switch off the fire and stir up your biscuits until fully covered.
Squeeze it into a rectangle tupperware and put it in the refrigerator
You can cut it into small pieces later and it's ready to be served

Tips: Actually, it depends on you either you like milo or coco more. You can adjust it according to your preference.

Fulltime Housewife

2008-05-19T19:01:00.000-07:00

Life is a journey. And this part of my life, I called it 'being a fulltime housewife'. My life as a fulltime housewife was quite relax. Take care my baby, do the laundry, cleaning house, cooking and lots and lots of rest. But i know i shouldn't forget on the other part of my life, that was a career mother.

But one thing for sure that I 'm aware of is the fact that I really love my family. May Allah bless us All !! Give us the strength to surpass all the test He gave..

Life's Journey

2008-05-14T08:18:00.000-07:00

Do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others.
It is because we are different that each of us is special.

Do not set your goals by what other people deem important.
Only you know what is best for you.
Do not take for granted the things closest to your heart.

Cling to them as you would your life, for without them, life is meaningless.
Do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past nor for the future.
By living your life one day at a time, you live all of the days of your life.
Do not give up when you still have something to give.
Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.
It is a fragile thread that binds us to each other.

Do not be afraid to encounter risks.
It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.
Do not shut love out of your life by saying it is impossible to find.
The quickest way to receive love is to give love.
The fastest way to lose love is too hold it too tightly.
In addition, the best way to keep love is to give it wings

Do not dismiss your dreams.
To be without dreams is to be without hope.
To be without hope is to be without purpose.
Do not run through life so fast that you forget not only where you have been, but also where you are going.

Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored each step of the way.