Sunday, February 20, 2011

looking back..;)

looking back..searching for the 'old you' was the best thing i had done remind ur self of anything u hold dear to heart since back all the suffering, joy and sacrifice back there..

once in a while, I would love to read back all my post in this my own diary of life..looking what's important to dreams ;)esp when u're lost..;)

for me to keep my journey on the right that i won't forget who am i inside..
sometimes we walk too fast in life and forgot what's our aim in life..
what is the reason of living? what is your correct way of life?

sometimes we forgot the basic need in ur life when u're too busy with the 'worldly things'..
o Allah, how i'm ashamed of my life of not managing my time well but i know i have my priority clear...i'm glad that Allah still give me chance to prove it..o Allah, it is still a long way to go.. please give me strength and iman to pass it all with flying colours.. make this 'hijrah' for me to start fresh and become better in every aspect of my life in my search for mardhatillah..ameen

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

pray to Him..

haven't write in this blog for a very long time..well, i'm not good in's my husband actually who encouraged me on writing..;)
being a wife, mother of two and preggy 11weeks, humble worker, servant of Allah..can it be my reason for being busy? well, that's what I presumed most people would think..;)which have been my very reason..still;)
thanks Allah for giving me good family to rely companion who always remind me of being better and hubby:)

my next chapter of life: which I called study life..
it was not easy to decide on this part of my life..need a lot to give sacrifice.. to build my dream..
I have a childhood dream of becoming a professor..still remember young as 4 years old..i want to prove it..
I need to improve for my pride..satisfaction and yearning to study again..become better in my life and be knowledgeable..and being acknowledged for my career..
I need to improve my financial status..become better for my growing family..
I need to prove to other that i can achieve my dream..
I want to be a dependent mother for the comfort of my child..for my child to live better..
If you want to be dai'e, be knowledgeable is important..for you to spread truth and da'wah better..and improve my society..
I want to be better academically and being near to Allah with those whose my heart setled down for mardhatillah..
and I choose IIUM coz it was the place which have trained me to better in da'wah, usrah and helping those in need..i really miss work, my carrer, my family most of time tied my arm and legs from involving in those area eventhough my heart moaning inside..i have lost touch of everything which my hearts yearn most..people keeps on giving u tazkirah..ilm'..usrah..philosophy of Islam which I long to hear..;)

with usrah..ukhuwah..strong believers around me..i hope i could improve myself, my thinking, my way of life.. to train my little khalifahs..
o Allah bless me..bless all of them show us the way for your love only..fimardhatillah..
u just need to pray to him...please o Allah, guide us along the way..;)alhamdulillah..

Monday, October 18, 2010

girl before flower

be sincere...


Learn to call on Allah,
In the dark,
While Riding on a bus,
Or sitting in a park

Learn to do it when,
Alone in a room,
Or staying up late,
Staring at the moon
And if someone boasts about,
What he did for Allah,
And asks you to tell him,
What you did for Allah
Just Say, "Why should I tell you"
If I did it for Allah?"

be thankful, ummu wafi


Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire,
If you did, what would there be to look forward to?

Be thankful when you don't know something
For it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times.
During those times you grow.

Be thankful for your limitations
Because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for each new challenge
Because it will build your strength and character.

Be thankful for your mistakes
They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you're tired and weary
Because it means you've made a difference.

It is easy to be thankful for the good things.
A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also
thankful for the setbacks.

GRATITUDE can turn a negative into a positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles and they
can become your blessings.



Everyday as i wake up at dawn
My mind start working the moment i yawn
There were many things to do, o dear!
That's why i hastily did my Subuh prayer
I didn't have the time to sit longer to
praise the Lord
To me rushing out after prayer is nothing odd...

Since school, i had been busy every minute
Completing my tutorials and handing it in
My ECAs took up most of my time always
No time did i have to Allah to pray
Too many things to do and zikir is rare
For Allah, I really had no time to spare..

When i grew up and started my career
Working all day to secure my future
When I reached home, I prefered to have fun
I chatted on the phone but i didn't read the Quran
I spent too much time surfing the Internet
Sad to say, my faith was falling flat...

The only time i have left is weekends
During which i prefer window shopping with friends
I couldn't spare time to go to the mosque
I'm too busy, that's the BIG EXCUSE...

I did my five prayers but did so quickly
After prayer, I didn't sit longer to reflect quietly
I didn't have time to help the needy ones
I was loaded with work as my precious time runs

No time at all to visit a sick Muslim friend
To orphans and elderly, I hardly lent a hand
I'm too busy to do community service
When there were gatherings, I helped the least

My life was already full of stress
So i didn't counsel a Muslim in distress
I didn't spend much time with my family
B'coz i thought, doing so is a waste of time...

No time to share with non-Muslim about Islam
Even though I know, inviting causes no harm
No time to do Sunnah prayers at all
All these contribute to my imaan's fall..

I'm busy here and busy there
I've no time at all, that's all i care
I went for religious lessons, just once in awhile
Coz i'm too busy making a pile...

I worked all day and i slept all night
Too tired for Tahajjud and it seemed not right
To me, earning a living was already tough
so i only did basic deeds but that's not enough..

No time at all, to admire God's creation
No time to praise All_h and seek His Compassion
Although I know how short is my life
For Islam, I really didn't strive..

Finally the day comes, when the Lord calls for me
And I stood before Him with my Life's History

I feel so guilty b'coz i should have prayed more
Isn't that what a Muslim lives for?
To thank Allah and do more good deeds
And the Quran is for us all to read..

Now at Judgement Day, I'm starting to fret
I've wasted my life but it's too late to regret
My entry to Paradise depend on my good behaviour
But i've not done enough nor did proper prayer

My "good deed book" is given from my right
An angel opened my "book" and read out my plight.
Then the angel chided me....

"O You Muslim servant, you are the one,
Who is given enough time, yet not much is done
Do you know that your faith is loose?
saying "no time" is only an excuse.
Your "good deed book" should be filled up more
with all the good work you stood up for..

Hence, I only recorded those little good deeds
As I say this, I know your eyes will mist..
I was about to write some more, you see
But i did not have, THE TIME to list".......




A Muslim Woman

She conceals her beauty
Obstructs the radiance from seeping through
Cloaks her seductivity
Refuses to submit to the wordly desires
Preserves her atractiveness and charm
Protects the diamond within
She is left savorless
Yet she remains veiled.

She is ridicled by prejudice
Mocked by displayed beauty
Taunted by the devil.
It shatters her patience
Lowers her self esteem
But only for a split of a second.
She remains veiled.

Its strange
Yet marvelous
It's faith.