looking back..;)

looking back..searching for the 'old you' was the best thing i had done ever..to remind ur self of anything u hold dear to heart since then..review back all the suffering, joy and sacrifice back there..

once in a while, I would love to read back all my post in this blog..as my own diary of life..looking what's important to me..my hopes..my dreams ;)esp when u're lost..;)

for me to keep my journey on the right track..so that i won't forget who am i inside..
sometimes we walk too fast in life and forgot what's our aim in life..
what is the reason of living? what is your correct way of life?

sometimes we forgot the basic need in ur life when u're too busy with the 'worldly things'..
o Allah, how i'm ashamed of my life of not managing my time well but i know i have my priority clear...i'm glad that Allah still give me chance to prove it..o Allah, it is still a long way to go.. please give me strength and iman to pass it all with flying colours.. make this 'hijrah' for me to start fresh and become better in every aspect of my life in my search for mardhatillah..ameen

pray to Him..

haven't write in this blog for a very long time..well, i'm not good in writing..it's my husband actually who encouraged me on writing..;)
being a wife, mother of two and preggy 11weeks, humble worker, servant of Allah..can it be my reason for being busy? well, that's what I presumed most people would think..;)which have been my very reason..still;)
thanks Allah for giving me good family to rely on..love companion who always remind me of being better and improved..my hubby:)

my next chapter of life: which I called study life..
it was not easy to decide on this part of my life..need a lot to give in..to sacrifice.. to build my dream..
I have a childhood dream of becoming a professor..still remember it..as young as 4 years old..i want to prove it..
I need to improve for my pride..satisfaction and yearning to study again..become better in my life and be knowledgeable..and being acknowledged for my career..
I need to improve my financial status..become better for my growing family..
I need to prove to other that i can achieve my dream..
I want to be a dependent mother for the comfort of my child..for my child to live better..
If you want to be dai'e, be knowledgeable is important..for you to spread truth and da'wah better..and improve my society..
I want to be better academically and being near to Allah with those whose my heart setled down for mardhatillah..
and I choose IIUM coz it was the place which have trained me to better in da'wah, usrah and helping those in need..i really miss it..my work, my carrer, my family most of time tied my arm and legs from involving in those area eventhough my heart moaning inside..i have lost touch of everything which my hearts yearn most..people keeps on giving u tazkirah..ilm'..usrah..philosophy of Islam which I long to hear..;)

with usrah..ukhuwah..strong believers around me..i hope i could improve myself, my thinking, my way of life.. to train my little khalifahs..
o Allah bless me..bless all of them show us the way for your love only..fimardhatillah..
u just need to pray to him...please o Allah, guide us along the way..;)alhamdulillah..