Seronoknyer jadi ummi ;)

Seronoknyer bila wafi dah boleh sebut ummi n abi..
Seronoknyer bila dapat mandikan wafi..
Seronoknyer bila wafi minta pujuk kalo merajuk..
Seronoknyer bila wafi minta peluk bila nak tido..
Seronoknyer bila wafi makan ummi suap..
Seronoknyer bila wafi teman ummi masak..
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Seronoknyer nanti bila wafi dah pandai cakap..

Sabar je la bila wafi babab ummi..
Sabar jer la ila wafi tarik rambut ummi..
Sabar jer la bila wafi tak nak makan..
Sabar jer la bila wafi makan kecah2..
Sabar jer la bila wafi babab adik..
Sabar jer la bila wafi demam..
Sabar jer la bila wafi kena bisul..
Sabar jer la bila wafi kena buli..
sabar jer la bila wafi sepah2kan umah..
sabar jer la bila wafi nak main air kat bilik mandi..
Sabar jer la bila wafi muntah dalam kereta..

Seronoknyer jadi ummi.. Alhamdulillah, thanks Allah..

My breastfeeding journey 2nd edition..

Wow, it's great.. Alhamdulillah, trying to make breastmilk stock for my working time..I'm using Medela Freestyle and I love it so much.. I hope can maintain breastfeeding my baby as long as I can..Initially I only got 1 oz then slowly 2 oz and currently 3 oz..oh, I love it. It doesn't hurt at all..
May Allah give me the strength to be in this line of ibadah as long as possible..
For those out there..who is still trying to find their own breastpump.. medela is the best..;)

those in life that i missed

taking breastfeeding leave makes me realize that there were a lots of things in life that i lagged behind..sometimes it makes me want to work, where i can be my best..

first, wafi..before this, wafi n ummi was quite a distance..if he cried, he would rather hugged my hubby than me..he would hear to him, kiss him but not me ..
but now, taking care of him fulltime, nursed him, bath him, feed him makes Wafi loves me more...and i feel glad about it..that's the price that i have to pay for working..those were the things that i miss in life..seeing him grow up.
I missed breastfeeding him.. only upto 6 months.. please Allah, make things easier for me with Wadi..

second, my house..being at work most of the time, made me so tired when back home..i was so tired to frequently clean, tidy my home..glad i have washing machine to do my laundry..

third, cooking..i love cooking very much but not be able to cook most of the time made my few skill lost and many dishes i still cannot make it right..sometimes it look so simple but when you come to it, you did not get the same end result..

fourth, my family..i love my family..

fifth, my neighbourhood..i only talk to 2 houses in my neighbourhood..i don't know others

sixth..ABIM..i cannot contribute more than I can.. but I still miss the support and tazkirah. and what matter most was my friends..same fikrah, so we understand each other.

seventh, my friends..I don't have time for them..as I struggle in my life..managing my house, my kids..I really miss them..wish they would forgive me..

there were so many things..is it worth it?but I also loves my work..I hope when I helped people, Allah will help my family, my hubby, my kids n also my friend in life..making their life more easier.
InsyaAllah..

My breastfeeding journey..

it's so tough to maintain.. Oh..please God, help me..and my survey was so amazing..sometimes you never know what you'll found..I also found a very strong support group. that is what i really love about it. www.susuibu.com, www.mumlittleone.com every fact n detail about breastfeeding...thanks Karyatee.. for introducing this to me...please ya Allah, I want to make this experience as reality and feel proud about it so i can promote to others..amal ma'ruf nahi mungkar.

Be a superwomen..

This part of my life was tough. I love my children..just need to customize with my own rythm and adjust with my life. I admit that it was quite difficult. At one time both Wadi n wafi cried while i was in the middle of cooking food at the kitchen..how am i to respond? Oh..ya Allah please help me..Both need my attention. So sometimes, I would take the whole morning just to cook lunch or the whole evening, just to prepare for dinner...:) Well, we just have to deal with it..

Now, I know how my mother were..in those time..taking care of us (her 8 children)..got to be 'superwomen'. How I wish I could be one.. Just need some more time. Kak Hasni would be one good example..:)
Gambatene..

Dugaanku...'buat mak..'

My Worry



I lay at night wondering what you’re going through,

I cannot close my eyes without thinking of you,

With every tear I pray for you,

I wish I could be there,

To hold your hands and comfort you.


When I wake up I lift my hands up high,

And ask Allah to put ease in your life,

Bring joy and happiness,

To have your loved ones by your side,

For it is the least you deserve.


Be strong and have faith,

For Allah is always there,

He listens and answers,

So ask away.


I wish life was easier and simple,

With love and peace,

But Allah is All Wise,

For if it was,

We would never achieve our goal.


It is these little things that make us stronger,

Appreciate what we have,

So when you face a trial,

And you think you’ll break,

Remember it is because He loves you and believes in you.


I cannot imagine in a million years what you are going through,

But it is through your absence I feel your pain.

I pray for things to be the way they were,

But this is my test and yours too,

Just bear in mind, I’ll always be there waiting for you.


By Shumina Uddin

Let Me... my luv

Let me be your blanket when you are feeling cold,
Let me be your memories, for when we both grow old.
Let me be your voice for when you're shy to speak.
Let me be your smiles when it's comfort that you seek.

Let me hold your hand, and guide you down life's road.
Let me hold your troubles and this worlds nasty load.
Let me hold your face, to tell you that I care.
Let me hold your heart, to let you know I'm there.

Let me be the cloth that wipes away your tears.
Let me be the advise that whispers in those ears.
Let me be the remedy for every ache and pain.
Let me be the one, to polish every lesson's stain.

Let me in, when you are scared and when you're feeling small.
Let me in, so that I may make you, once again feel tall.
Let me in, so I can see how beautiful God has made you.
Let me in, so that I can help with every lesson that He gave you.

Let me see your shining eyes, and let me see your grace.
Let me see the lines of aging decorate your glowing face.
Let me see the little boy that grew in every possible good way.
Let me see my blessings, my sweet darling, each and every day!.

tanggal 18hb Jun 2009

Alhamdulillah...Muhammad Sahrol Wadi selamat lahir ke dunia..For the past 1 week, memang tak larat nak pegi keja. Abg pun dah risau.. standby jer..time tulah nak bermanja. balik keja terus tidur.. abg memang heaven. Tlg kemas umah, settlekan kain baju, jaga wafi..Thanks abg. Luv u..

Ari tu hari rabu.. ada cme petang tu..tajuk yg tah ape2..how to make a good case summary..hehe ;)
sakit lebih sikit dari biasa.. dalam kul 11 pagi perasan ada show. takut.. terus tepon abg..went to labor room straight to be check..glad abg dah sedia dgn beg emergency dlm kereta. malu betul..kena check dgn Syamilah.. MO lain kat klinik. 3cm actually but the labour pain still not consistent. contraction 2in 10. Either want to wait or get admitted.. to be safe, abg say say better get admitted. wafi will stay at mak sham's house that night.. kesian wafi.. tak pernah tido ngan Mak Sham sblm ni..

ptg tu, sakit makin kurang. contraction 1 in 10. malam tu rasa mcm bole balik umah. tunggu esok..dlm kul 12 malam, pakai enema satu then BO. rasa lega sikit then tido. dalam kul 2 pg, contraction makin kuat n regular. kul 3.30 pg rasa mcm nk kuar sgt2. kejut abg terus check VE. 5cm effaced. HO oncall masa tu Lim. suruh dia dokumen jer finding then tolak ke LR. Jumpa kwn lagi kat LR. Dia buat VE dah 8cm. buat AROM. moderate liquor. rasa nak teran sgt dah masa tue. Then Maliza dtg suruh mengiring sebab CTG x cantik masa tu. still meneran gak dlm mengiring tue. tak fikir apa cuma nak teran keluar jer masa tue. ramai bg support. bila dah keluar kepala baby rasa lega sikit.. pastu baru push abis. baby nangis sekejap jer. Ada Paeds standby. Mlm tu, Evelyn oncall. She said, "You have a very healthy baby, ezmas. So, do not worry."nasib baik takde ape2. Masa tu abg cium kat dahi.. rasa relieved sgt.

First time tgk wadi..rasa bersyukur sgt..meleleh air mata. Alhamdulillah.. tembam, ada lesung pipit dua belah..Mcmana agaknya Wafi tgk adiknye nanti..:) Thank you Allah.. Bless my family.